Kerajaan dan Rakyatnya

saya pernah berbicara kepada rakan saya bahawa kerajaan yang memerintah mencerminkan kerenah rakyatnya. Bagaimana kerajaannya bertabiat, begitu juga lah rakyatnya. Keadaan ini seolah mengambarkan betapa rakyat kini pun turut korup di dalam menjalankan gerak kerja harian mereka. Mereka menerima norma korupsi adalah merupakan norma pemimpin dan kuasa atau mereka yang berkuasa. Sama ada mereka adalah politikus atau pun pegawai kerajaan.

Namun selepas pembacaan buku Memoir Perjuangan Syed Husin Ali, saya mendapati SHA sering mengambarkan masyarakat Malaysia sebagai sebuah masyarakat yang berbentuk feudalnya dan budaya atau suasana feudalnya masih tebal. keadaan ini juga digambarkan dengan rakyat masih merasakan Sultan itu tidak silap ataupun maksum seakannya. Saya bukan ingin menafikan ketuanan Sultan Melayu cuma ingin menekankan bentuk masyarakat feudal masih tebal di kalangan rakyat Malaysia.

Apakah perkaitan feudalism ini dan rakyat Malaysia? Budaya ini membentuk tabiat rakyat Malaysia terutamanya Melayu di dalam corak mereka mengundi atau memilih Kerajaan yang memerintah.

masyarakat feudal melihat pemerintah diberikan kuasa untuk memerintah bukan daripada rakyat akan tetapi dari Tuhan. Ini adalah suatu corak yang sama berlaku disemua bentuk pemerintahan monarki di seluruh dunia. Kuasa Raja/Sultan/Maharaja adalah daripada Tuhan atau kuasa yang Maha Besar yang mengawal seluruh alam semesta ini.

Oleh itu, masyarakat Melayu terutamanya melihat UMNO sebagai bangsawan generasi baru. Malah corak pemerintahan juga bersifat 'hereditary'. Jika anda adalah anak politikus yang besar anda berpeluang untuk menjadi politikus jika anda mahu. Perkara ini berlaku pada PM kita sekarang, Menteri KDN, Timbalan Menteri MITI dan sebagainya. Semua ini bercorak feudalistik.

Oleh itu, masyarakat melayu yang masih terperangkap dengan minda feudal ini masih merasakan UMNO adalah pemilik negara ini. Oleh itu jika pemerintahan ini diserahkan kepada parti lain maka Malaysia ini atau secara spesifiknya Melayu akan tidak terbela. Mereka akan tergadai tanah mereka. Ini juga disumbangkan oleh kejayaan media massa kawalan UMNO untuk terus menakut-nakutkan Melayu.

Perkara ini jelas kelihatan di kalangan rakan-rakan saya sendiri yang kononnya terpelajar namun masih dibelenggu oleh momokan UMNO ini. Mereka masih merasakan bahawa Melayu akan dikhianati jika negara ini diperintah oleh golongan yang bukan dari UMNO. Sekali lagi akibat terbiasa dengan apa yang ada, manusia sukar untuk mencuba sesuatu yang baru akibat TAKUT.

TAKUT kepada sesuatu yang tidak pasti. Sedangkan ketakutan itu belum tentu nyata.

Kini negara berada di persimpangan. Angin perubahan sudah semakin kencang. Walaupun ramai yang masih skeptikal akan kemampuan PR untuk menerajuui negara ini. Namun PR akan menambahkan bilangan negeri di bawah kawalan mereka pada PRU yang akan datang. Pulau Pinang, Kedah, Kelantan dan Selangor akan kekal berada di bawah PR. Kerusi PR Selangor akan bertambah. Perak juga akan kembali kepada PR, kali ini dengan pertambahan kerusi yang lebih kukuh. Ini bermaksud rampasan kuasa yang berlaku selepas PRU-12 tidak akan berulang lagi.

Negeri Sembilan atau Melaka mungkin akan jatuh. Saya terpaksa menghormati kelebihan KM Melaka yang begitu rajin berkhidmat kepada rakyat. Melaka ini PR akan menghadapi ujian yang getir, malah mungkin akan berlaku kerusi yang 50-50.

Negeri Johor juga akan ditembusi. Sayang, susah untuk diperkatakan perkara yang sama di Borneo Utara. Kita tunggu dan lihat.

Apa pun perubahan akibat pendidikan dan internet, UMNO sepatutnya sudah bersedia untuk menghadapi kekalahan. Mereka tidak akan berubah selagi mereka berkuasa. Mereka hanya akan berubah bila mana mereka merasai peritnya menjadi pembangkang di negara ini.

Generasi yang hidup kini semua bukan generasi feudal. Mereka juga kurang merasa bersyukur atau berasa terima kasih kepada kerajaan. Mereka merasakan kerajaan sepatutnya berterima kasih kepada mereka kerana memberikan BN kuasa. Mereka kurang mendapat bantuan kerajaan kerana bersaingan dengan menggunakan kudrat mereka sendiri. Biasiswa sudah tiada lagi, mereka meminjam yang mana mereka perlu membayarkannya kembali. Mereka tidak berhutang kepada kerajaan.

Mereka kini ramainya pembayar cukai. Dulu ramai melayu tidak layak membayar cukai. Kini kerajaan bergantung kepada mereka dan bukan sebaliknya. Kerajaan perlu mendengar permintaan mereka dan bukan sebaliknya.

masyarakat feudal sudah semakin pupus dan perubahan kerajaan adalah bukti terakhir kepupusan itu.

Driving Innovation

I was watching Merdeka Round Table talk on Awani just now, I was really inspired. The talks evolves around the innovation culture in Malaysian society. A society that shine down on being different and where the elders knows best.

I am really attracted to a UTM professor had state that UTM is now the most innovative university as they are emulating a flexible course. They do have a fix 'menu' on what to study on a course that you've chosen but they also has a non-fix menu of studies. Which is kind of cool. I wish the time when I was studying in UKM I had that kind of choice.

I laugh at Tony Fernandez when he told that during recruiting they gave candidates a plane to be coloured. Those that colours it nicely aren't chosen but those who had 'wild' crazy ways are chosen! He said we want people with disruptive ideas. Hahaha!!

They also discuss on letting our children to explore the world, makes mistake and follow their heart in shaping their life. They also had a program of sending students over sea for a week to experience other culture and it really changed their perspective. On this I do agree, exposer does funny things to your brain and thinking.

On this I decided to start bag packing and travel the world. Bringing with me a small digital camera to capture the scenery that I saw when travelling. In high hope to change my world view and be more open.

I finally Understood

There was something really big happened when I was in Langkawi. It really pissed me off. I don't understand why was I treated that way. Was I too stupid or ... I don't know. But I'm really hurt. I treated that person with respect and admiration but in the end the person hurt me. The wound was deep. I guest the person might have guest it on the way back to Kayel by the way I reacted to the person.

I just wanted to convey the feeling of disgust. Disgust of the way I've been treated. It is not fair. I was always been good, a faithful friend. Why? I just couldn't explain it. I try to look at the person point of view. I guest, the person doesn't want me to be near. Then it is what I will give it as much space as the person wants from me. As I think that is better for the both of us.

Thank you for all that you've done for me. I guess you'll be happier if I'm not around to bother you. Thank you, I finally understood.

Clearity of Mind

I began to realised that the more I'm close to Allah, to began to realised that my mind is more clearer. I began to thirst knowledge more. I began to pick up books. Strangely what inspired me was a movie "Limitless". In the movie the man actor had become addicted to a drug that enhance his brain. It opens up his brain to access parts of his brain that he never knew existed. This is based on the theory that human usually can access 20% of his brain capability. When the brain can be more powerful tool if human can access 100% of its capability.

So, what does it had to do with my enlightenment? I remembered that knowledge is a light (nur) from Allah. Only by Allah's permission that the secrets of the world is opened to us. Allah is the source of every know. I realised that these time when I was so far away from Allah, my mind is far from clear. I can't think straight. My mind is clouded. Idea refused to fill my head. And the result is a writers block.

What is bothering me now is the question of time. Thanks to Dian who spurs the inquisitive part of me that refused to let a question go without a good answer. That's me, a simple question without an answer really can kept me up all night. especially if the question is mind challenging and it could have an interesting answer. yes, I believe that I am a philosopher by nature. I like to ask why. And when someone challenges my brains it really drives me nuts.

So, now is the ultimate question. What is time? It is an entity that was created by Allah. It is describe by Him in his verse 'Al-As'. It tells that human is in fact in a lost if the time that he is given by Allah is wasted and not used to worship him or preach good advice to all that is around us.

There is two kinds of thinkers when discussing on the subject of time. 1: Those who thinks that time is like space. Meaning that even thou a past is an event that happened, it is still there. Like space, if your from Johor and when to Kedah. Johor is still there and you can go back to Johor. Same with events. Even thou the Independence of Malaya happens in 1957, the event still there happening; in other words, it is internal.

The other camp said that time is dynamic, a time line that said, when an event had happened then is gone and stop from happening but it doesn't mean that you can go back to experience it.

Still it doesn't answer the question of 'What is time?'

This question is interesting and i know it will bring me to even more interesting answers.

I Believe in Democratic Fairneess

I'm a believer of Democratic Fairness. I believe that to enable a democratic system to work it must be done in fairly. Am I an opposition? No, I am non-partisan. I say that without fairness the people will lost faith with the system and may resort to other violent way of expressing themselves. Look at Egypt. Why that its people resort to street protesting? Because they didn't believe in the system anymore.

So the ruling party must gave a fair party, adhere to the opposition demand. Show them that the election had been run fairly. Give the people assurance that fairness does happens in our system. Failure to address the people demands will result in chaos. Remember the days where the government know best is over. That is what the prime minister said.

So, those out there who still hasn't register or vote, please vote. Who you vote is not of my concern. Just vote for fairness.

Roller Coaster Day

This couple of days has been a roller coaster rider for me. Yesterday my wife told me that she is experiencing bleeding. At first I didn't think it was anything serious. Then when she got to school and told some friends about it, they told her to call the hospital, which she did. The nurse told her to quickly go to the hospital. She did that and then the doctor admitted her to ward. As soon as she told me, I quickly ran out of the office to Hospital Serdang.

Really all this is given quite a fright. Thank Allah everything is alright. The doctor didn't seem to find more reason to keep her in the ward and discharge her this evening. What really pissed me of is the hospital stupid regulations.That is the reason that I hate government hospital. Too much regulations that aren't necessary. Like can't bring children to the ward on weekdays but it is okay on weekends? What was that all about?

But there is one thing that I like to highlight. That the quality of the service is improving on the friendly aspects. So, I'm not going to crucifix them for today.

I also realise something from all this. I do love my wife very much. I still can remember the heaviness of my heart as I walk away from her to leave her there alone at the ward. And had a great time with my boy. Still I wouldn't like to go thought it all again.

Who You Are?

I met a couple who were both government officers. They are from the PTD scheme. I was quite taken a bit when the wife straight away told me that she was a PTD officer, when I don't really want to be that specific. I didn't tell them who I am cause I don't need see the need to. I just tell them where I work and once he (the husband) told me that he once work at the KPTG office of Penang, I straight away mention a few names that is in my batch indirectly told them who I am.

Why? Cause, what you do for a living should have made you into an active member of the society not a mare no one. you are chosen by the government to be among the finest among the selected few. But here are you being no one. I'm not saying that I was an outstanding member of society but at least I can write down that I am active member of a committee that is not in a certain government body.

Really, it saddens me sometimes when thinking that PTDs are selected to become leaders but as soon as they return home from work, they isolates themselves from society and become nobody outsides of the office. Again, I stress that it doesn't mean that I am expecting we become a President of any society but an active contributing member. Prove it to the people that had chosen you that you are the leader type not some dorky I just following orders kind of type.

Eventhou it is true PTDs are managers but still again PTDs are selected because of their leadership potentials. What better way to enhance it by becoming a leader outside of your position of power?

What is the point of this ranting? I am saying that you should be ashamed of you job if you are not an active contributor to the society outside of your office. If all of that bravado at the office are because of your position and not because of your charisma. In other words JPA had made a mistake for taking you in.

Writer's Block

I don't know why but I've been experiencing writer's block for years. As you can see the last entry was actually what, three years ago? man that long. I wasn't sure why. But I decided that and feel that my block is over and now, I'm hitting the blank pages again.

Strange, I even wonder myself why. just like that my brain just switch off. I've been reading a lot but somehow i just stop writing, not entirely, I did a few article on my new hobby which is Scuba Diving. Maybe it was family? Or maybe all this new new place or one of the most dreadful thing is that I lost my reason to live. Well, that doesn't mean I'm about to commit suicide or something. it's just that you lost that fighting edge. I mean you got all that you want. All that you have been dreaming is already or can be readily achieve.

I've realised that i need a new horizon, new ambition new goals. I always wanted to run the marathon but I never had the time to run. some people said, "Well, make time" I said, "Well, I had weekends but that too is for my family". I admit it, I'm a family guy. I'm willing to leave my office for my son and wife. yeah, I'm not the true blue civil servant that willing to sacrifice his/her family for the good of the nation. I put my family first. Hey! I'm not saying it is wrong to put your nation first. that is up to you. It's your stand. be firm. it's your life value. me. I value family.

Why? because my son is growing up so fast. One time i was holding him and he just lied there in my arms. Now! his running around and telling me stories in just 3 years! I'm not going to miss all that. I'm going to cherish every single day with him and the soon to be born baby. Yup, a second one is coming this November! no matter if it is a girl or a boy. I'll love him/her still.

There you go, just to break the block. Hopefully there's more to come. Because, this my be a reference someday in my biography. Who knows, I could end up being somebody or doing something great someday in the future. The people will want to know who is their hero! Hahaha!

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